The Power of Procrastination

If I could have one superpower it would be the power to not procrastinate.  Although, this kid in my class wrote a paper on how procrastination can be a positive thing because it releases a certain adrenaline in your system that makes you work better.  If there is too little or too much of that adrenaline, it doesn't work.  But if you have just the right amount, you might work even better than you had under normal conditions.


I've always been a procrastinator.  I know that feeling of adrenaline and I've done miracles with it.  But I've also messed up some things because of this bad habit.  It can be a devastating thing.  I'm currently procrastinating starting a term paper that's due on Wednesday.  I mean it's just annoying that I did that to myself.  But I have procrastinated things that are much more vital in my life.  Like losing weight and writing that next book, etc. etc.  


I mean, am I procrastinating finding the right partner to marry?  Maybe I'm not putting enough effort into it, like going to bars with the specific purpose of meeting someone or scourging the dating sites for possible matches.  I mean I'm doing that kind of stuff, but am I wholeheartedly doing it, or am I putting it off?  Until when will I put it off, I'm 36? 


I'd like to have a child before I'm infertile, but maybe I'm putting off having children by not finding a spouse.  I would feel better about finding a spouse if I didn't keep putting off losing weight.  And the cycle goes on and on...


It's in my very blood to procrastinate, although my parents are not procrastinators, however it is like this innate personality trait I have.  I think it might even be my worst flaw.


So maybe it's time to do something about it.  Well, I woke up at seven on Saturday, that's a start.  I bought my inserts for my planner, so I can plan away procrastination.  


Somehow I have to turn the notion that doing something I don't like is better now then later when there are consequences to not doing it.  Like writing that research paper is going to be a complete bore, however it's better to be bored now than stressed and bored later when I don't have enough time to finish it.  


The only good thing about people who procrastinate is that we often live in the now, I think, or like to think.  We don't think about the future as much as we should, but sometimes that can be a good thing.  We want to enjoy the now and put off the pain.  


But the only problem is that there is no future and there is no past, there is only the now.  So it's vital that you just do it now.  I gotta go write my paper...later....


nina